Haywire?

Back to blogging! A place where i pour my feelings out i guess? Without people knowing.
Actually i think cause i'm bored.
But this post is gna be kinda emotional. hee hee.

My life's going haywire now.
Just now i quarrelled with my dearest girl.
Went to bball to vent it all out.
But it didn't turn out well.
I kept thinking bout Yillis and what happened just now.

Bball first.
FUCKED UP. LOSERS. IDK WHEN YOU ALL LEARNT TO PLAY LIKE THIS.
You bloody keep putting your leg to block me.
I keep quiet. But who knows. Things got worse.
I keep quiet doesn't mean i dont know anything.
You got way too far. You pulled me down.
I landed on my back. I keep quiet nvr say anything.
You didn't apologise or anything. You still act like nothing has happened.
Nvrmind. But later. I steal your ball, You not happy, You swing your arm towards my chest.
What was that for? I dont understand.
If you cant take losing, cant take people steal your ball.
DONT FUCKING HELL PLAY BASKETBALL.
Go be a librarian.
And you didn't apologise even after that.
That's what makes things worse.
I just asked my mum to rub my back for me. I couldn't take the pain.
She told me its swollen. Sianed ttm.

Baby,
I'm sorry really for everything.
I really hope you can treat me like how you used to.
I cant take all this coldness.
I really cannot.
Its really torturing you know.
Hope you'll forgive me.
I will try my best to control my everything.
I will compromise with you.
Things will go your way, not mine.
I dont want us to be APART, i want us to be A PART.
Guess all i could say is sorry.
But i really am.
I'll stop all my nonsense.
You won't see this i guess.
Maybe after awhile. Idk.
I miss you so much.
Very very much.
How i wish your here beside me to hug me now.
Your my everything.
I love you baby, so much. Realy very very much.
Hope things will turn out well.
Guess your feelings for me is fading?
Or your tired of everything?
Idk.
I'm sorry.
I guess your life sucked alot after being tgt with me.
I'm a burden.

SIGH! I can't get to sleep.
The pain in my back is so unbearable. =(
It will be fine tmrw after i get my sleep. I guess?
Today my life officially sucks. =(